One of the tenets of life with Thomas is conscious movement. Not just movement in the way you observe and feel the patterns of your life, but also literal movement. Thomas tends to break days into parts that prevent you from stagnating in the brightness of your computer screen. We step away for twenty minutes and workout, only to return with a fresh look on the tasks at hand.
Today Thomas recognized we needed to kick off the day with a workout. He has a way of knowing these things, and this knowledge extends into the type of workout he designs on the fly.
In the type of workout Thomas initiated today the team gathered upstairs to move in a kind of imitation led workout set to the tempo of music. Thomas has a way of recognizing what you need in your movements. Sometimes it’s to open up and relax your shoulders. Sometimes it’s to change the way you hold yourself up with your core. Today the clear need was to get our aggression out.
After we immersed ourselves into the raps blaring on the speaker, Thomas set into a kind of repetitive jump exercise. As George and Thomas pumped their arms over their heads and grunting to get the aggression out, I found myself voiceless.
“I can’t,” I thought to myself. Of course this isn’t surprising. I’ve been holding my feelings in for ages, and when it comes to aggression, most of my urges have been sealed tight for years.
Thomas noticed my near silent bursts of air and asked me to speak up. Still, I couldn’t, and so he adjusted the exercise at hand. Within minutes I was grunting my aggression out a little. Thomas has a knack for these quick adjustments that make all the difference.
As the workout closed Thomas asked, “Is all your aggression out?” Of course since the guys had been releasing their aggression all workout, they reached their goals as I was just finding my voice.
“No,” I said, and so Thomas turned up the music again and set into more air punching, kicking, and yelling. This time something inside of me moved. I was taking old settled energy from deep inside me and releasing it in the form of raspy screams and grunts at the top of my lungs.
Just as I started to feel drained, Thomas stopped the workout and laid out a towel. We laid down in a T with our arms outstretched, his head near my side. We transitioned from full on aggression to talking, and this is when Thomas walked me through what was going on.
After feeling everything differently and starting to understand it, Thomas went into his process. Of course he’d explained what he does and how he decodes people all the time, but somehow hearing everything in the context of myself made everything clearer. In finding an expanded understanding of myself, I also found why what he does is so important.
Just like in the workouts he tailors to your body on the fly, Thomas has a way of seeing through things like triggers and self-sabotage. He doesn’t get angry and walk away though, he explains. Today on the towel he explained why I need to recognize my negative patterns. After I recognize it, I I need to create an awareness of what triggers it. It’s not to take that trigger away (after all that would break down other systems you rely on to live your life), but to live with them in a new way. To become aware so that you can say, “When this happens I self-destruct in this way.”
The next time around you have the power to evaluate the situation differently. You can say, “I feel this happening. I know this button has been pushed. My normal pattern would be to sabotage myself, but this time I wont. This time is different.”
Today I felt movement. Not just in a workout, but in the way I recognize myself as I handle my aggression and move through the world.